She Fought Back Right To The End....

It felt like putting a beloved dog down. She was so much a part of how people saw me....saw us.

It saved me....housed me...loved me when no one but my sons did.

Here's a posting going back to 2009: LINK

I had the choice...keep my apartment or fix her. The repair for the rear main seal would have been north of 1K. I simply couldn't do that. Thus.....

I was faced with the thing I most detested about being divorced. The promises you are no longer able to keep. And to her.....I had sworn I would never, EVER sell her. My sons had instructions to bury me in her.

Out the window now.

I am not doing so well in communal living. Even now as I play some music in the background, I await THE knock.

Anyhow....

Here are her final moments in my ownership. If there was ever a mechanical thing that deserved a "God Bless You"...it was her! The video is .....



Until next time....

At A Loss.....

I'm at a loss!
I have been served an eviction notice....NOT for rent or noise or anything like that. It's The Sovereign Conversion Van Of Wonders. The rear main seal is kaput and leaking pretty steadily on the the pavement.
Texas is WAY to hot for most blacktop applications, so many lots are cement.

There's no way I have cash for that repair, nor anyplace to keep said vehicle away from here. If anyone local who reads my stuff here can help or has any ideas, PLEASE reach out! This is, as you might imagine, VERY timely.
Thanks

This Is Really Unusual For Me....

INSOMNIA!!!!

This just doesn't happen to me!!! But for the last buncha nights, I simply can't doze off. And when I do get to sleep, it's in chapters....not a solid 8 hours.

This past Sunday through Tuesday I must have slept a good 35 or so hours. But before that, and again now....it's all screwed up.

There is a lot on my mind and some motivational mud I am trying to slog through. There are 3 projects I did some ground work on that are now stuck on neutral. Here's what happens:

I set myself up to take steps to accomplish things and a really intense wave of exhausted flows over me and I can't do anything but go back to sleep. I fight through the day to stay awake, and when the Polar Vortex and Canada aren't make the temps here unbearable, I walk as much as I can. That helps. yes. But once I set my self down to make some progress, the overwhelming tiredness takes hold again.

I have columns and columns of material and proposals stuck in my head. I wish science would get to the point I can put on a helmet like on Fringe and transcribe my thoughts to text. Even now as I type, I am fighting the tiredness. I would give in, but I know I'll wake in an hour or two and the process begins again.

Some force is battling back at me.

Anyhow......

This is a large part of why I haven't been posting and moved along in getting my life back. I still have the apartment, but am out of funds already and hoping something turns up where I can get some cash. But more importantly, I want to make some forward movement on the efforts I have started already.

This is not a "Boo Hoo, Cry Me A River" posting...just letting you all know what's what.

The tiredness is kicking in....hopefully I'll get a full 7-8 hours and have a productive day for a change.

We'll see!

Thanks for reading. Until next time.....

I KNow It's Been A While...

...but nothing of any real note to write about.

Been under the weather these last few days. Can't stop sleeping...energy comes in short spurts. Having an inner battle with my confidence and that is holding me back. Thing is, that's a RARE thing for me.

The I.R.S. deductions are still affecting my cash flow which now is non-existent. Looking for something quick to earn what I can. The bitter cold has hampered that effort.

Anyhow...hope springs eternal. Perhaps have some good news in a few days.

Thanks for reading!

P.S. I'd be curious to know who in Florida has been reading me. Send me a note, if you would.